Jeremiah 29:11

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Friday, September 27, 2013

Perfect Peace

I can’t sleep tonight.  Anyone that knows me knows I don’t have any problems falling asleep.  Seriously, I can get into bed and be asleep in a minute or two!  So what’s my problem tonight? I’m thinking!
I am a thinker.  I wonder about stuff and just go over things in my head.  Sometimes that is good, sometimes it’s not, but it is what it is.

Something happened today, or really I should say I found out something today and it bothered me.  As I have been thinking about it off and on for hours, I realize it is such a small thing it really doesn't matter.  The thing is important to me… to others probably not at all.  It doesn't really matter what the thing was, it’s just something that made me question things in my life.  It wasn't actually the thing I found out, but more of what it made me question.

I have questioned things that have taken place in my life, decisions I have made, and what it all means.
And as I was sitting thinking at 12:30 in the morning, I looked up some thoughts about frustration and of the 5 points I thought the first two were good, but the others didn't really apply, but it got me thinking that really God is the only one that can carry us through the difficult or frustrating times in life.  Think as I might… I won’t ever have the answers to the questions that are going through my mind and I realized that it didn't really matter.

Isaiah 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.  This verse went through my head and honestly, I am so glad that I have God’s word to run through with all the other thoughts that are running around in there.

I believe there is a decision to be made.  I can let these thoughts ruin my thinking and see what I (and others) have done as useless, worthless, not enough, or any number of negative things… some of which could be true and stay stuck.  OR I could take what’s before me and realize that some of it could be negative but that I can choose to use that to move forward rather than let it hold me back.
I have some “wounds” that need to heal and I don’t know how long that will take, but I also know that during this time of uncertainty and frustration I can pick God and once again,

God is NEVER a wrong choice!

It isn't always easy right now to see the good, but I know that God is still good.  That, right there, is enough to give peace when things aren't as peaceful as I would like.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

In Times Like These

There are times we all feel we are at our wits end with a situation.  I know I have on many different occasions.  I got a call from someone in one of those situations recently… needing something to just be able to move forward.  Or maybe not move forward, but prevent them from moving backwards or at least stand their ground.

The only thing we can say to people in a situation is, look to Jesus.  All truth and exactly what we need.  However, what does that look like when all you can see around you are people and situations that make you crazy?  Let’s face it, life can be difficult and sometimes it is confusing, frustrating, or downright insane.
So, if I am going to honestly help someone what can I do?? I can’t really change their situation.  I can flippantly give my advice; what I think would be helpful. Or I can pray for them. I am talking about one of those prayers that is don’t in an instant, like “God, you have to help me say the right thing to this person”. 
I like that my friends ask me what I think about something, but really what I am trying to do is help them see God.  I don’t have any answers and that’s what I try to explain.  I understand some of the problems, I can sympathize with someone but I am not them.  I cannot possible know what to say or do to help them. 

But there is One that will always have the answers!  The Lord.

When I was trying to come up with an answer for his particular person, I asked God, “What can I say to them”?
His answer was: She needs Jesus.

Immediately this song went through my head.

In times like these you need a Savior
In times like these you need an anchor;
Be very sure, be very sure
Your anchor holds and grips the Solid Rock!

In times like these you need the Bible,
In times like these O be not idle;
Be very sure, be very sure
Your anchor holds and grips the Solid Rock!

In times like these I have a Savior,
In times like these I have an anchor;
I'm very sure, I'm very sure
My anchor holds and grips the Solid Rock!

This Rock is Jesus, Yes, He's the One;
This Rock is Jesus, the only One!
Be very sure, be very sure
Your anchor holds and grips the Solid Rock!

I think that we need to do what the Lord has commanded us to do:

Ephesians 5:19 Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;

Dwell on godly things.  Will it change what is happening? Probably not, but what will happen is as we do this we get a new perspective. And what is so great about that??Well, have you ever been working on something and it just wasn't  working right and later you can back and you could clearly see the issue and were then able to work on it?

Well, following Ephesians 5:19 is just like that except when we are listening to God we will gain something else…

Isaiah 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.

Do I have the answer for this person? No.  But I know Who does.

God is always the answer to any problem or question we have… remove yourself from the situation and look toward God, think about His word, hymns, and good Christian music. 

Refocusing on God is always good and the only thing that can get us through something we don’t know how to move from.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

The Mundane

Today, as I sit here are stare at my Bible just thinking about God, life, and writing a post, I thought, I have nothing to say.How can I have an entire world before me and an entire Bible in front of me and have nothing to say???

Life is regular today, mundane.  Mundane is such a blah word.  It makes me feel like doing what I should even less when I think about it.Mundane according to one dictionary is, “worldly, earthly, common, ordinary, and pertaining to this world or earth as contrasted with heaven”.

I always knew my day to day routine was mundane as the first part of the definition suggests, but I never thought about it being contrasted with heaven… In that case, even the GREATEST part of our day is still mundane.
I have heard said that God’s work of maintaining the world as we know it must be very mundane to Him and we should keep doing what we have to do even if it is a “mundane” task,  just like God.

Can God do a mundane task? I guess not according to that definition. I mean if we are comparing our mundane to His, well, that’s just ridiculous.  If I don’t get my mundane job done, the world won’t end, but if God doesn't get his mundane jobs done… there’s going to be problems!!

Which leads me to my job being “mundane”; maybe I am not changing the world with what I do, but even if it feels pretty mundane, it really is important.

Moms and wives are important.  Our world will tell you that our jobs can be done by anyone if we are willing to pay for it.  Clothes can be washed, dried, and folded at a laundromat or cleaners; you can pay someone take care of your house, car, or yard.  You can send your kids to daycare and school and even have a babysitter while you are home if you want. 

Physically speaking, we as moms and wives are "replaceable". But are we???  Are we really??

 Let’s think about our “mundane” routines as pouring LOVE out on those around us.  I love my family and that’s why I do what I should do to make dinner, clean the house, do laundry, etc.  In fact, I had to stop typing to get the next load of laundry out of the dryer and since I was working on this, the thoughts were going through my head, if you always think that you are doing what you do because it pleases the Lord, the so called mundane things take on a new meaning.

Not too many people are going to say thank you for getting most of the things we do all day finished, but I can tell you that God sees it and is happy we have chosen to make doing the ordinary things our ministry.
God is pleased with us even when we do something “mundane” if we have an ETERNAL perspective. And then, the mundane isn't mundane.

Colossians 3:23 And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;

Friday, September 20, 2013

Stupid Enough To Have an Answer

So, as my head was RACING with post ideas, this one stood out.
Do you like my title? It is so true and here is why…

I have struggled in my marriage…for a long time.  Mostly my doing, but that’s not this post.
A long time ago I was talking to someone about my marriage and this person said to me, “who do you think has the kind of marriage you’re talking about”?

This is when it happened…. I ANSWERED THAT QUESTION!!!

Oh my word… really???  Yes.  I did it. I said you and another couple.
If I could go back in time I would tell myself to just not talk… just trust me and stop.
There isn't anyone that has “that marriage”.  Oh, sure some people have better marriages than others, but NO ONE has “that marriage”.  Why?  Well, because you know what? I have been duped!!!  We have been duped by the world, by our hearts, by other people.

Why do you think we all expect something better out of our marriages?  I think it is because we want perfect… whatever perfect is to each person, whether it is money, house, kids, love… whatever YOUR version of perfect is.

I have realized I DO have a perfect marriage!!!  Yes, I do.  Perfectly signed on the line.  Perfectly picked a sinful man. And then there is perfectly sinful me.
Yes… I have “perfect”, if the definition of perfect is anything short of heaven.

                                        And well, I am calling it… Game over.

I am talking to myself right now, but feel free to keep reading.

Stop looking for the next thing to make things right.  Stop expecting that there is a state of marriage that we can arrive at.  Stop expecting so much from someone when you aren't giving “perfect” godly love.  Stop seeing what isn't going right and see what is.  Stop.  Just stop.

I feel like a hamster on a wheel… I keep “trying” to “fix” something that really is not going to be changed by doing the same things over and over and really isn't exactly broken but rather an ongoing changing, living relationship.
Why am I trying to reach some point and thinking that when I get there I will have this thing called marriage all figured out???   If I expected my kids to get to a certain point and stop growing people would call me crazy… kids need to keep growing, changing, and become who they will be.  Why did I, or do I, think marriage is any different?

I SHOULD be working on making two people one… not expecting that person to complete me, make me happy, or even take care of me.  If we looked at marriage the way God does, we wouldn't see the strangeness we have but rather the mission we PICKED to undertake.

To that person that loved me so much they didn't want to make me look foolish… I really wish you would have been a little more honest and said something like, Oh no!! We have problems! I want to strangle my spouse several times a day, but God is working on me.  I think that we need people that will say, nope… I don’t have it.

I am going to do my best to be respectful, kind, and loving to my husband and yet be real.  Real for all the people around me that have ever thought (or even said) I want a marriage like hers… Do you really have any idea what you are saying?? No, no you don’t.

We all struggle to some degree. Let’s try not to make it worse…  The whole point is, don’t beat yourself up trying to achieve a marriage like someone else because you have no idea what struggles they went through to get to the point they are at, nor really if they are doing all that well at all…

Galatians 6:2a Bear ye one another's burdens
2 Corinthians 10:12b {they} comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

The Battle

I had a tough day with my thoughts after writing the post this afternoon. And my son had a rough night; he texted and said he was sad. No details, so I am just left knowing what I do know and not being able to help him. It's hard being a mom to an adult child because there is only so much that can be done. Hugs and kisses don't work like they used to and the miles apart make it impossible even if it did. Of course, I would drive to see him if I actually thought it would help! 

I have been thinking about Noah today. A great victory and then something terrible. I feel like that. Getting a new Pastor, working through things and making a very personal decision, and now making the blog. But wow! I know it happens but I really didn't expect to be attacked so fast within myself and with my son. Satan sure wants to mess with us!

I am so thankful for God's faithfulness even though right now I am in disbelief it's started so fast to be a struggle. Sometimes I think that makes it even harder. We don't expect things at certain times and they seem worse than maybe they are. 

I am going back to Jeremiah 29:11. I have to. God is working. I can't see it again but I know he is....

And as many issues as I have had with getting this post completed... I know this is a spiritual battle!!!!

So, since it no longer the same day, I am going to do what God has said:

Psalm 127:2 It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he give to his beloved sleep. 

The issues I have had this afternoon might be back, they might be okay. But I know I am the "beloved" and staying awake will not change one thing except make me unable to handle the day ahead of me. God is in control and I am going to sleep. 

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

The Thoughts

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith The Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you an expected end.

I have loved that verse for years but I can't really say when I started saying it to myself. I think I really needed to believe in this world full of struggles and hurts there was One that had good thoughts toward me all the time.

At times I have been very confused by this verse thinking the things I am going through don't seem to be very peaceful.  We each think we have the answer to having peace...if I only had this job, spouse, house, car... Fill in the blank.   But I realized a long time ago that if each one of us "had peace" our way, we would each get our way for that moment and then change our minds and then really we wouldn't have peace at all.

It is a loving God that can see what needs to be done to make the whole place "peaceful". I think our idea of peace is different than God's; we want it to be peace for us not the good of the whole.

I don't pretend to be a Bible or God expert. In fact, I have been in church since 2002. I really don't know all that much. Nor do I like or want to get into debates about it. I believe God can use anyone. And I mean anyone, anyone what wants to be used for Him.

So, why am I writing this? I love to write. I love to dwell on the "why" and "how"  things I go through work out. I find that writing makes me think about God more.

Sometimes, I just get angry.   Sometimes, I get sad. Sometimes, I get convicted. And sometimes, I have peace.

I don't think I have "it" all together. Far from that. I struggle each day to see God and how he is working.

I am selfish, stubborn, slow-learning and just plain sinful. But in all that, I KNOW I have a God that isn't giving up on me and has thoughts that have an "expected end".

I am writing for me and my friend(s). I am going to write from my heart what I am experiencing in life whether it is looking good to me or not.

I have found that I grow most after the struggle. My most recent one was a long one and I seriously didn't thinks was going to make it. I cried. I blamed others. I gave up to a degree.  I stomped my foot.  But I still held on to God, as feeble as it was, because it was the only thing I KNEW that was going to work out.

So that's it. I am not someone special with boatloads of information but rather someone who walks through this world trying to become more like God by seeing things His way and having my thoughts lined up with his.